While I give thanks to AI for getting me started on this page, I feel I can now speak a bit more for myself and be more real, more me. Let me give you a brief bio of who I am.
I operate from a place of love. Libra rising and Neptune conjunct Venus in the 1st house, of course! Love is the key to everything. It's all about love. The magical, mystery tour on this plane we're all on is designed for us to seek love, receive love, be love. We all come from love and we will return to love. Love, love, love!
As a young child, I would often lay awake, restless at night and gaze out my window at the night sky. I would talk to the moon and the stars. They talked back to me. I remember feeling as though if I could just reach out a bit further, I would actually be able to touch them. I would ask them questions like, "Why am I here?", "Why am I in this body?", "Why am I not a boy, like my brothers?", "Why do I have this hand?" No, I can't remember what the answers were to that very young child, but I knew at that young age that there was way more to this world than what we could just physically see, touch, taste, feel and hear.
A few years later, in my 10th year, my dear great grandmother, Gran, passed away. I had grown up with her living on her own next door to our family home and I saw her daily. She was a treasure and I have many fond memories of her, particularly of her quaint, little dance she would perform whenever she greeted us after we knocked on her door! Her house was full of mysteries - musty smells, dark corners, hidden compartments tucked away and the definite feeling that she was not 'alone' in that house! Shortly after she passed, she woke me up one night. There she was, plain as day, sitting at the end of my bed, playing with my feet. She was talking to me about her love of dancing and encouraging me to keep on with my ballet lessons. I felt her love for me so strongly during her night visits. I felt safe, warm and completely blissed out on love from her spirit. I remember telling my parents about Gran's visits one morning at the breakfast table. The silence was deafening. My mother said something along the lines of "Oh, don't be silly. That can't happen." My father caught me alone in my bedroom and asked what Gran was saying to me, how did she look etc. He was genuinely interested, my 9 year old self remembers. But both my parents never mentioned it again. All children are naturally attuned to the other realms but society armours them up against it. However, don't get me started on that tirade just yet!!!
Moving forward about 16 turbulent years, I was at a Touch For Health workshop held over 2 days in Auckland. On the afternoon of the last day, I volunteered to be the recipient of a technique we had just learnt about so our tutor could demonstrate. I remember lying down on the massage table, closing my eyes and then - the opening. The Love.
From that day in November, 1988 when the transiting Moon, Saturn, Uranus & Neptune were all conjunct my natal Sun, I knew my life would never be the same again. I could no longer shut spirit out. I actually thought I was going nuts, being bombarded from the other side with 'visitors'. I couldn't sleep, eat or even drive my car without a conglomeration of all kinds of entities talking to me all at once. It was frightening yet I knew I could control it, given the right tools. A wise psychic told me once she thought sending a couple of good mediums/psychics into psych wards could clear out half of the occupants and go part way to solving their mental health issues. I definitely think there is some truth in that! But, that's another story.
So, I entered my first, earnest truth and knowledge seeking phase. I sat in various types of psychic development groups, found a tutor who would give me 1-1 astrology lessons for 2 1/2 years and I read and read and read so many books. I took more astrology classes, sat in more meditation groups and learned how to work with spirit. I became an astrologer, giving readings from my home, taught astro classes at the local community college, was invited as a keynote speaker at various functions in the Auckland region, was a regular guest speaker at the local spiritualist church and even had a slot at the local radio station for a while. I was busy and loving it, all the while fine-tuning my craft. I was also doing my life as a wife, a mother and trying to find some balance for it all. Not. Easy.
Fast forward another 30 crazy years and I'm back in my home town and finally attuning to the love again. I'm listening to my latest ear love, Tony Ann. He is only 31 years old but writes the most beautiful music that soothes my ears and soul. My sight love is watching my and my companion's grown sons fly forth into their own lives and following what they love. " You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth." Kahlil Gibran. Fly, our pretties! My taste love is the warm, rich soothing cacao drink made with such love and intention by a new friend and shared with a fantastic support network of humans. These people know who they are and I cannot thank them enough for their encouragement, words of wisdom and opportunity to grow. Bless your cotton socks, all of you! Touch love for me these days is in the giving and receiving. I am so blessed to have humans around me these days who touch me with love - physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually - and they let me touch back. Smell love for me is my grandfather's cigarette smoke. It means he's close to me in spirit and I always welcome his presence. Ok, maybe I also may miss being a smoker sometimes! He usually has Gran (his mother) with him and they shower me with nothing but love and encouragement to keep following my heart.
So, here I am. In the latter part of my life and still growing and learning. Still discovering. Still truth seeking. Still loving.
I am not a robot. I am spirit having a human experience. I am Love.